In the photo from the late 1960s
I look like I have been thrown into the child sized chair
but I seem strangely happy about the situation.
I am 6 months old
and my companion on the chair
is a large yellow fluffy teddy.
Years later when I was able to use words to describe my surroundings I called her "Baby".
Me and my teddy.
A moment captured in the chaos of a Christmas morning.
In a more recent photo Baby seems to have shrunk.
Her fur is thin and sparce.
The ribbon long gone.
Her hips click concerningly
and her arms seem strangely floppy.
My lifelong companero.
My teddy.
An observer of every childhood game,
faithfully tucked into the dolls' cot each night
(the dolls had no place there).
My teddy.
Left abandoned on my teenage bed,
and regrettably tidied into a box for numerous years.
Now I hold her again.
My teddy.
As in my middle age I seek to remember
what brought comfort to the terrified child
who is still within me.
She reminds me that I am held by one
whose arms have never let me go,
and who speaks the words I need to hear,
"Do not be afraid, I have called you by name,
you are mine!"
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